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Now some thing about my wife and kids---well my life is worth living with every moment cherish-able now  Allhamdolillah--i love frolicking with my elder daughter(Ula-2yrs old)as the Younger One(Ala) still a tiny tot!! Elder one and i are best friends and love 2 fight with each other and when it gets too much for her to bear she yells:-"Crocodile come and take Papa away! he's bugging me!!"Eversince she had been a tiny tot she has a special place for Crocks and when we took her 2 the Zoo(when she was big enough to understand and identify) she just shrieked with joy encountering  them through a grille of course!!
When we were expecting Ula as our first child i always wanted a Daughter and Prayed with all my heart to Allah for one--Thus Blessed!!!!!!!!
We(Me and Ula) came more closer when Ala saw her first dawn during the time when their Mom was in Hospital for five long nights!! Ula was with me through out as i had taken a Paternity Leave for which am entitled to being a State Government Employee!--moments spent together will always be adhered!!

Ala my Younger One(5 months old) is a lot different then Ula in a way that she's a lot calmer and docile and both of  them are similar in a way also---they both have a Million Dollar Smile for which and whom i can give my whole life!!
If Ula is my "Oxygen" then Ala is my "Bloodline" these gals now are the Tracks on which my Bullet Train is speeding on, my life revolving around!
Ala when her elder sis and i have fun, very eagerly she wants to join us and smile her heart out! she tries to get up!!(now we have to be very careful as she has started exploring around each and every nook and corner of our room!!)
She loves when being tickled by my chin on her stomach and the side of her neck--she laughs her heart out and that laugh is the most beautiful song and music to my ears for which my heart yearns for! quite now and then!!

Lastly and most importantly Saima my wife--if my children are the Tracks then She is an  important Junction for my Bullet Train--she's a strong pillar and the foundation that am leaning on and standing erect!!
Hence an important link without which my life is incomplete--Thanks God we have stopped quibbling and have started loving more!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
One thing else to make note of her her is her sacrificial nature! being a Professional Physiotherapist she has become a dedicated Mother and a Home Maker!!--this sacrifice is rarely to be seen now a days in this Materialistic Society of ours!! where both the parents are ignorant about their child as they are busy milting money!!!--i 'll  always love u 4 this and for much-much more Darling!!

Breaking Free!!

Like a leave want to blow in the wind aimlessly or want to be the first rays of a dawn hugging the mountains or want to be the chirp of a bird or the sound of a gushing brook flowing down the mountains and creating the music of life feeding my soul within!!

These thoughts constantly takeover the reigns of my mind when am ensconced in the lap of nature and transcends me to a world unspoken and unheard of where my thoughts takes the form of words and words takes the form of a rhyme and a Verse when romanticizing with Nature. Hence blocking away the world left behind filled with mundane chores that makes us so sluggish that the feeling of Breaking Free is born most of the time!!

Even in my tender years when in Commune with Allah often used to ask Him one question:-"like birds why didn't You gave us the wings to fly?!" Maybe since then this feeling of Breaking Free is deep rooted within me I guess!!

Perhaps that’s the reason why I never wanted to marry and whenever used to see a couple with children always used to scoff and ask(to myself)as to what their life must be??!! and why marry in first place??!! But once in a job and away from Nature and the Treks and all my best buddies married off and having no time for me that I started yearning for a partner!!!

Thus, things changed and so did my thinking(doubts, prejudice regarding marriage)and they did for better!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I married to a most amazing person more unwavering and strong then I am, a pillar of strength that I lean on to when shrouded with qualms!

Now my life is stable and is filled with euphoric moments as am a proud father of two beautiful daughters whom I call my Oxygen and Bloodline very fondly!and now the question to Allah when in commune with Him has been replaced by another:-"why unlike a Calf or a Fawn a human child cannot run soon after being born?!"

But now after being a good son, a brother, a husband and a father I yearn for space and time to write poetry which I don’t get any---so the feeling of Breaking Free still persist and once a year I do Break Free and get lost in my world of nature and poetry where I pour my heart and thoughts out!!!!!!!!

Now after growing in all these years and savouring maturity! for me writing poetry is just not an interest but Spirituality--a soul cleansing experience of a life time, hence making me a more refined person and a better human being!!